{{PaTHeTic MoNtH}}

tis time i realli meant it when i say i HATE myself... did tourism test yesterday n got onli 39 marks!!! i feel like bashin myself n cry till there's no more liquid in my system... now, i'm totally exhausted!!! been comin hm LATE!!! been studyin my ca e day b4 e test!!!! basically been doing all e impt things last mins!!! realli realli hate myself!!! tis is e 2nd ca tat i got below 40 marks...not e usual grades tat i've been gettin in e past few semester... is my grade goin down? e 13th excos are rite abt 1 thing, our stock market will surely decrease rapidly once we take over e council... TOO MANY ACTIVITIVES for me to handle now!!!! feelin so shagged!!!! gettin sick bein ard pple all of a sudden!! smtms, i jus wanna b alone! my heart is realli hurt... but its not onli abt e results tat sadddens me, there are many more things tat i jus dun wanna share or show... i jus wanna b happi doin things tat i love to do but i'm not happy wit e things tat i'm doin or involved in. feelin so depressed!!

anyway, my grp for e kl seminar finally finished our performance steps.... realli nice but i'm feelin realli tired... i cant wait for tis seminar to end!!!!!

smtms, i wish mr david will take me seriously.... i hate it when he always disturbed me n callin me e goddaughter of mr aaron teng...rite now, i'm being patience but i hope i wont show e "pissed off" face to him one day, cos e situation will surely b unpleasant!!!! i dun meant to b rude but tis is wat i feel...n at tis stage of losin hope, i'm might jus explore....i have even thought of quitin e thailand trip coz its too much committment needed n money.... but i'm still thinkin abt it whether its worth stayin

u might agree wit me tat tis entry is very negative but tat is wat i'm feelin n i dun think i can keep it inside of me tat long...

i wish august will end soon....